This nagging self-doubt and lacking trust I am discussing always seem to be related over an issue or situation. Crippling and Nagging self-doubt is something we seem to learn from childhood and into our adult lives.

This certainly doesn’t consider you to necessarily be someone lacking confidence.

In a previous article I talked about mailing my handwritten invitation for the Worldwide Mindfulness Meditation to my friend William.

And in another article describing that from deep in the rabbit hole of the prison system I ‘d gotten word of this event from a woman in Croatia, named Nakita, whom I’ve never met ever before.

Esoteric in nature

As a prisoner, I had my doubts about the validity in all this, but went along with the idea regardless. One thing I did know for certain: I was going to be careful in honoring the esoteric quality of the principles contained in A Course in Miracles.

Everyone has their own interpretation of ACIM, though similar, with Truth as the common theme. I never wanted anyone to feel the A Course in Miracles is being pushed on them, or sold, or to feel I wanted them to convert from their religious faith.

It’s not what ACIM intends to do.

More so, it has been proven to enhance an individual’s current spiritual path, just as Nakita had written me about, saying her Catholic faith had been inspired and enriched.

No church or religion affiliates itself with A Course in Miracles; it just so happens that Nakita is a Catholic. The Course is not a religion, but it is a psychological interpretation of Christic philosophy.

Once I gave William’s question some time to soak in, I was simply guided to mail him the carbon copy of the mindfulness meditation announcement, along with a note letting him know I had received it from Nakita in Croatia.

In prison there was no copy machine for inmate use and a poor, ill-equipped old-fashioned typewriter with damaged keys, so I ‘d handwritten a copy mailed to me from Nakita, and found some carbon paper to secure a copy.

Lacking Trust

I was still lacking trust and that crippling self-doubt was haunting me about this entire idea.

Then I thought how someone who considers himself an honorable individual who makes mistakes like everyone else, doesn’t mean that what I call crippling self-doubt will never show its face.

I let go of those ego-based thoughts and allowing self-trust to enter I realized I needed to mail the letter immediately, because December 22, 2010, the night of the worldwide session, was only two weeks away.

I included an explanation in the note that the flyer was describing a similar direction to the path I am on, and that I hoped to one day soon be out of prison so I could answer his question in a more satisfying way.